Yesterday was not the best.
I went to bed with swollen legs and woke up with a face that impeded my breathing. I walked to and from class with my face towards the ground, and I only spoke to one guy that I recognized from class – I did not want people to see my face. Honestly, I was ashamed at the way I looked. I’ve been spoiled, lately, by not having to deal with nephrotic syndrome. I know the reason for the swelling, we all the know the reason – lack of medicine. And even though it’s really easy to think that I should just be more “with it”, that I should get on the ball and not ever forget things like this, there are so many blame drugs to take that it’s hard to keep up with what needs to be refilled, what doesn’t…etc. Of course, there’s the automatic refill option. However, there are some drugs that change alot. I don’t want to get automatic refill for some and not for others, and then forget which ones are automatically refilled and which ones are not, or get them refilled only to find that I no longer have to take this particular medicine or, worse, I need a higher dose of it. Also, I don’t always have enough money to get automatic refill. Argh!
Also, I think I have contracted the cat’s fleas. I woke up dreaming that I heard a flea jump on a book I was reading, and now have itchy ankles and keep thinking I feel things landing on and/or biting me. “Argh!” to that too!
I did get to talk to Mom, who is, at the moment, in Meridian, Mississippi with the Public Health Service. This is a good thing – well the fact that she is in Mississippi is a good thing, but I was actually referring to the fact that I got to talk to her – because I was getting kind of worried and having weird dreams